Fear Is Not the Enemy
A midnight conversation with anxiety, truth, and the body.
Reading Time: 4 Minutes
It was 2:47 a.m.
I was supposed to be asleep — but my body had other plans.
No loud thoughts.
No clear trigger.
Just this intense feeling of restlessness.
My heart was pounding.
My blood rushed like a river through my veins.
And in my chest, it felt like a nest of ants — busy, little frantic ants, building something I couldn’t see.
I was wide awake.
So I did the only thing that made sense in that moment:
I picked up my phone and started taking notes.
Not to fix it.
Just to witness it.
What I wrote became a conversation with fear — and maybe, with its truth. Have a read through my midnight anxiety notes — I hope they speak to you too. :)
What if fear isn’t the enemy?
What if that intensely uncomfortable feeling in your body — that rising energy, that — I can’t breathe — type of panic —
is not a reaction from your thoughts but a response to your thoughts?
What if a panic attack is actually telling you:
”No, that’s not a good way to think. Don’t believe that thought.”
What if the slow-cooking anxiety that sneaks into your nervous system — like a creep — is actually an energy boost you can use to finally do what you’re here to do?
A reminder that you chose the wrong path — and that it’s time to get your soul back on track?
“What if fear is your friend, not your enemy?”
Surf the wave
Imagine a huge wave is about to wash over you — but instead of being knocked down by it, it becomes the perfect wave to surf.
What if that nervousness is right there to tell you:
“Yes. You’re made for exactly this. Surf that wave!”
You can be grandiose, seen, loved, appreciated — strong, creative, smart, talented, attractive. …
In fact, you are all of that.
Maybe fear doesn’t keep us from reaching this — but actually moves us in that exact direction.
What if fear comes around when something new is ready to be born — so you don’t miss the chance?
What if fear is exactly what we need to see clearly?
What if fear isn’t blocking us — but fueling us?
Let’s be fear-full
That tightness in your chest.
That tingling, buzzing beehive of nervousness in your body.
These intense, uncomfortable sensations — they’re like a volcano, ready to explode.
So no — let’s not be fearless.
Let’s be fear-full.
And let’s stop denying what may be the greatest force for expanding our potential. Let’s stop denying what’s always been here — and always will be.
Fear!
Not just a little bit, but in infinite omnipresence.
Fear can’t be tamed.
Fear needs to be befriended.
Let’s be fear-full.
Observe, Don’t Control: Let Fear and Ego Have Their Dialogue
Try this little experiment with me:
Imagine that fear is the answer — not the result of your untrue thoughts about yourself and the world.
Shuffle the cards.
Everything you think you know about fear — reset it.
And maybe, you open yourself to an entirely new perspective.
What if fear is talking to your ego right now — telling it to get out of the way?
In this moment, fear isn’t against you — not against who you are at your core — but in dialogue with your ego.
And you?
You can lean back and simply observe.
Grab a bag of popcorn and watch how fear brings the ego to surrender.
Watch how the ego resists, how it produces catastrophic thoughts, how fear becomes more tangible in your body — and how you —your awareness — remains seated in the theater of it all.
From this seat of conscious observation, you begin to see:
You are neither your thoughts.
Nor your ego.
Nor your fear.
You are the one who is aware of it all.
The one who stays quiet while the play unfolds.
You can’t intervene or mediate.
Fear and ego will have their conversation on their own.
You’re simply there to give space.
Still. Awake.
And it’s this wakeful awareness that allows fear and ego to unfold. There’s nothing to do— your awareness creates the space for their natural unfolding.
The 4D Movie of Your Life: Observe, You’re Not the Protagonist
I once went to a so-called 4D cinema as a child — with Dolby Surround Sound, vibrating seats, and little sprays of water from built-in nozzles in the front seats. So whenever Bugs Bunny spat while talking, you’d get sprinkled in the face.
Now imagine you’re sitting in a theater like that.
The theater that is called Life.
Now imagine another layer of reality — one where you don’t just watch the actors, but feel everything they feel.
The emotions, the sensations in your body:
That tingling sensation in your chest when you’re afraid.
The ant nest I once mentioned.
That tightness in your belly, when you feel rejected.
You can notice them the same way you hear sound from the speakers, feel the water tickling your face, or sense the rumble of the seats beneath you. Just like the shifting images on the screen. Even your thoughts can be heard —like a voice-over narrator.
It’s all part of the show.
And once you’ve arrived there — in your seat, right in the middle of the feature film — then: grab that bag of popcorn and enjoy the spectacle that goes by the name of “LIFE EXPERIENCE.”
The Illusion of Control: Why You Can’t Win the Game of Life
As long as you chase your desires — for safety, for power, for things, for the ideal relationship... in order to be happy — you remain trapped in the endless pursuit.
You might even get there from time to time:
a fulfilling relationship, with two healthy children, a beautiful home, a life that looks and feels successful.
But just as it fills you up — it can empty you again.
Your partner cheats. You lose your job. One of your children gets sick.
Your house burns down.
You are a puppet — pulled between fullness and emptiness,
between highs and lows.
Sometimes you're happy, sometimes you're not.
The natural flow of life — the tides of ebb and flood—shapes your experience. And desperately, you try to hold on to the joy, the fullness, the control. Your mind tells you it can manage it all — but that’s the illusion.
And that’s what fear is trying to show you:
Peace doesn’t come from winning. It comes from leaving the game.
Only when you rise — above good and bad, above black and white,
above ups and downs — Do you remember:
You are not the wave.
You are the ocean.
